Mom.

I casually mentioned sleeping over at Alan's to my mom. I didn't think it would be a problem--she knows we've been together for...

"For relief of sore muscles."

You know you're having a tough week when you use your "back massager" on your actual back.

Dialing Chicago.

I've been fucking Bruce longer than Brandon or Jon, but I've never met him. He called me up out of the blue one day and we talked f...

Dream.

I dreamt that I was in a motel room naked on a bed with two men. One was normal-looking, even cute, and the other was deformed--giant and c...

It's not the flu.

I had a sore throat today, and for the longest time I couldn't figure out why. I wasn't congested, I wasn't feverish, I hadn...

Goodnight Kiss.

Went over to Alan's tonight, but due to a horrible misunderstanding ("I thought you were going to bring a box!" "I though...

"If I do say so myself."

I think one of my main assets in bed is that I'm really good at making the person fucking me feel like they're incredible in bed. N...

Snarking Cosmo.

I'm in an easy-target sort of mood. (I'll break my agonizing nearly-two-week dry spell tonight and then we can go back to horny det...

Woof.

I've attempted doggy-style (that's an icky name, by the way) sex with three different men and not one has succeeded. I'm not su...

I don't expect sympathy.

"Hi babe, it's Holly, just wondering if..." "I'm down in Tacoma with my parents for Thanksgiving. I'll be back u...

Marriage.

My parents didn't marry until a couple years ago. They've lived together for thirty years, worn rings for each other, raised me and...

Thanks.

I can't move right now. That's not some kinky bondage thing; it's my sister's cooking. She put two sticks of butter in the...

Welcome.

The first time Benny tied me up, I had my underwear on. I hadn't brought my toybag, so we were stuck with what he had--toy handcuffs an...

Self-portrait with rope and no face.

Small tits, big arms, a hogtie Houdini would break a sweat on, and goodwill towards men. Oh, and if you stop breathing I know five different...

Full Frontal Feminism.

I just read Jessica Valenti's Full Frontal Feminism , an eminently reasonable and plain-spoken explanation of why young women today sti...

New Rope!

I bought new rope! Lovely soft slinky silvery snakey rope! Sexy rope! Beautiful rope!

I just say "yes" and talk about Alan, but I'm a coward.

"So, do you have a boyfriend?" my coworkers ask me. They're just making idle chitchat. But to give the honest answer ("...

"How To Swallow Cum, Even Though You Hate It!"

This is kind of insane. Mean snarky comments on some of the weirder ones: 2. "Sharp sensation"? I've never blown someone who...

Birthdays.

"Wow, seems like everyone has a birthday in November. What's nine months before that? February? Why are people fucking in Februa...

Naked Time.

When I go over to Alan's house, we haven't seen each other in days, maybe even a week, so of course we have to have sex right away. ...

Terms of Endearment.

"Cocksucker." "Asshole." "Slut." "Pervert." "Whore." "Pig." "Cum dumpster.&...

FEAR.

I got photographed for something called "The FEAR Project", about sexual assault. I didn't really mean to; they had a tent up...

Shirt.

When I was very young, a friend of mine told me that the first time you have sex with a guy, he gives you his shirt. It's a ritual, she...

Snapshots.

It's all reducible to still frames. There was motion in reality, but it was mostly back and forth, and there were words, but they were ...

(They're software developers.)

"Welp, I better wash up before I go out with the guys." "Yeah. Wouldn't want them to smell all that pussy on you." ...

Hite.

I've been reading Shere Hite's The Hite Report about female sexuality. It's interesting, but I'm amazed how little of it a...

Outside the codes.

I wish our words for emotions weren't package deals. I wish "love" meant "really like." Because I love Alan. I do...

Birthday!

I'm twenty-two years old today! Hot damn! Had some hot damn pre-birthday sex, too. Alan is the Lotus Elise of lovers--he only does on...

Of course, sex is a mutual decision and not something the woman makes the man "earn." Right?

I've worked 33 hours over the last three days. 33 goddamn hours of lifting and turning and pushing and pulling the hundred-plus-pound d...

Taming the fantasy (to death).

I want to be raped. Okay, now, I don't want to be raped by a stranger , they might have diseases or something and they might smell funny...

You know how it is?

I very often have the feeling that I'm faking an orgasm at the exact moment that I am also having an orgasm.

Sister's Doin' it for Herself.

Masturbation is interesting only because it's everything about sex that doesn't matter. It's all the physical pleasure and rele...