Why I didn't just call the cops.

[ MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING for the nitty-gritty of sexual assault and aftermath. This is not a happy post and it's not one I really wanted...

Survivor.

temporarily locked post, sorry

Not-friends with only one benefit.

Dorkiewitch sent me this article, and it is amazing. I was uncertain if EzineArticles should be completely beneath my notice, to be honest...

Benny decision.

I'm going to talk to Benny. Funnily enough, I realized that "do nothing" wasn't the answer when I saw every commenter who ...

Benny is in a relationship!

Awkward Facebook moment: seeing that the guy who tried to fist me after I safeworded and left me tied up is listed as "in a relationsh...

It's rude to say "Well, DUH."

Man, leaving Benny was about the best thing I ever did for myself. Not just because of the little abuse incident, but because it shook me ou...

Goodbye Benny.

Welp, I finally did it. Finally gave Benny the Fuck Off he's had coming for only about two years now. He'd gone from being an assh...

Time Management.

Man, lately I just don't have time to be a slut. I get off work at 6:00, but recently there's been at least an hour of overtime ever...

Sometimes the Internet makes me angry.

Sometimes the Internet makes me so mad. There's a blog post that pisses me off and it just sends me down a chain reaction of posts from...

PTFO.

I was fucking Benny. Saran Wrap: a success! More constricting than hoped, less icky than feared. The only real drawback is that the sight...

Benny was okay.

I saw Benny today, and weirdly, I felt really good about it. During and after. He's changed a lot. I've changed a lot, and maybe...

Full Circle.

I saw Benny today. And somehow, we enacted the exact reverse of how we started out. In the beginning, I was needy and he was rejecting--I ...

Just another lazy Sunday afternoon.

Dear diary, Today I shaved a very hairy man's entire body (excepting obviously head and forearms). I'm not sure if it was exactly s...

Filthy Details.

We were both surprised at each others' looks when we met at the door. He'd grown a goatee; I'd started wearing glasses. We...

Streak broken.

Well, there's always Benny. Filthy details later because I'm so tired right now. I was pretty tired during, honestly. It's har...

My ol' bad habit.

I hung out with Benny and I feel better. We didn't play or fuck, just talked and watched TV all cuddled up. There's probably somet...

Clockwatching.

It was 8:55. I got on top of Benny and we fucked for hours. The fuck was a journey, an adventure in every possible position with peaks and ...

Dealbreaker.

"Would you lick my asshole?" "Would you kiss me after?"

An unsettling conversation.

Benny (mostly teasing): You should have your sister over here sometime with us. Me: Ugh. Benny (wistful now): I actually think it'd be k...

Doodles.

Benny and me, lying in bed warm and sleepy from fucking, afternoon sun streaming in the window. He's doodling little patterns on my bac...